Hi, I didn't forget about this blog, my life is just lowkey uninteresting as fuck so I don't know what to say... even though something did happen recently LOL
I suppose this is a slight continuation to my previous blog entry..? Moreso just an update about something specific I said in there, that being about the friend group me & my circle brought back. I mentioned it felt “inauthentic” & all... I think in actuality I was just feeling like I didn't deserve to be in a friend group at all again especially since I originally kinda destroyed it in the first place... even though all that previous "drama" was just us being dumb, emotional ass teenagers... so I felt it was better for me to like, be distant & all... but eventually I decided to fight off those feelings & managed to fit right back in the server. (I forgot to mention we specifically all hang out in a Discord server, not the one my friend made (said friend was referred to as “my bestie's boyfriend” in the previous post.))
Something else I wanna mention, about 2 weeks ago now, I got back into contact with someone who was my ex in late 2021 - mid 2022, and also haven't seen since mid 2022! We managed to quickly pick up where we left off & became friends again, we even invited them to our aforementioned server! It really does feel good to reconnect & ease everything up and all... no more holding grudges.
Maybe in future blog posts, I should start referring these people by their names..? I dunno, it's kinda hard being "vague"... so maybe expect names to pop up!
On New Year's Day of this year, I said on my socials that I was gonna actually draw more & focus on my characters alongside my interests, I was specifically drawing all of the main characters' reference sheets in my OC project, STARBYTE... guess who already forgot about all of that PFFT. In my defense I became a bit too focused on my relationships this month, y'know the reconnections & all. I plan on actually getting back to all of that since I've eased up since then.
Hmm... I suppose I could also share small things that happened today (well technically yesterday now, as it's currently 00:32 as of typing this). I got up at 9:00 as usual to log into school... only to then realize I didn't have school that day LOL so I fell back asleep, & then woke up at about 13:20, I got a bit upset 'cause I could've just stayed up since it's a bit rare but nice for me to wake up early on weekends/days off.
I also finally washed my bedsheets & took a shower, depression has been kinda kicking my ass (alongside me just generally, always forgetting to do basic/daily things) so I've been slacking off on those pretty hard... as embarrassing as it might sound... maybe I'll actually try to be somewhat consistent with those things again, hopefully.
Also, I had the random urge to just... play with my Yellow Submarine Beatles plushies... like I'm a kid again... I'll admit that urge has always been there ever since I got them as a late birthday gift... I feel too embarrassed as... y'know, I'm currently 18... and I don't want anyone busting in & seeing me play with them... and also as a kid I never played with toys alone, I always played with my brother, who's gonna be 20 next month, so I don't really know/remember how to begin playing... maybe someday I'll play toys...
Listening to: Oh Yoko! by John Lennon
dude never be ashamed for playing toys. that's so awesome dude ! i feel like when i find something that feels fun that doesn't involve a screen like writing in my journal or playing mahjong it just feels so cathartic . maybe for you that's Yellow Submarine Beatles Plushies
ReplyDeleteBLOG POST IS STILL INTERESTING! don't worry about the daily-life shit being boring idk about everyone else but i will eat that shit up.
TEEHEE TEEHEE TEEHEE i appreciate it buddy ... u eating my posts up nonetheless ... twirls hair
DeleteALSO UR RIGHT... i might still play beatle touys one day... it will be fun and yay